Strange Days

wow, i ended up getting a bit drunk on friday night and pouring my heart out to eli of all people. he is a strange creature. he certainly has a big drinking problem, but he knows it. and despite his childish behaviour most of the time, he is actually a softie and a pretty genuine guy deep down (just has some screwy priorities). but i have made the mistake of that judgement call before. he said that everyone knows i have a crush on joey, so im sure joey knows. but he also said he thinks joey has a crush on me. but then i lose faith in that when i realise that he never calls me to hang out or anything. its seems fairly one sided in that respect. whatever. i think i need to stop writing about him here. in fact im contemplating deleting all previous entries that refer to him...

on a more positive note, i made almost $200 tonight -not bad for a monday night. but then i had to give 30 bucks away in tip out to the kitchen, bar staff and bouncers, plus $10 on a taxi home.... ah well -thems the breaks.