last night i committed my first public sex act

The Date

so, it happened. it was all a little strange really. we went out to doma doma (again) with my japanese friend michiko and some of her friends. atsushi showed up and ate and drank with us. was very surprised at it being mostly japanese people and only 3 gaijin. we played handsies under the table and then when we were finished he said he had to go and meet another friend???? yes it was a girl, no it wasnt a girlfriend. anyway, at some point i got sick of trying to write emails in japanese so i just sent him one in english and figured he could be the one to find a translator. he sent one back saying 'goodnight my honey' ... i told him his english was very skilled, but he was still in trouble.

all things aside, what a FUN night. michikos friends were all a little crazy and p dragged another young jboy off to have her way with him. when karaoke was over and we banged on the door, p said she had just needed 5 more minutes and it would have been ....

the next day i ran into michiko, and her friend had told her that he was so glad we banged on the door when we did -5 more minutes and it would have been ....

p is scarring these poor young jboys for life......

today i saw girl guides selling bok choy

i just watched koyaanisqatsi. wow. thank you coby.

Storm Warning

well, they say it never rains but it pours. i have always suffered from this problem. the past month has been just a little crazy on the Boy Front and im not quite sure why.... probably because im about to leave japan.

so patricia is totally cool (well, maybe not 100%, but lets say 99.9%). she got back from her holiday and brought a jboy home the next night to cheer herself up. so water under the bridge there.

have been out A Lot this week. but great fun. wednesday i was a bit Pissed Off because atsushi cancelled on me, so i dragged all the boys out for drinking and karaoke. so much fun. friday we undertook another nomihodai at domadoma (Y1000 -how can you resist it?). p and i found some japanese girls we knew and dragged them along too. then spent most of the night talking about the most graphic and Intimate Issues in the middle of a restaurant where people cant understand you, it was great! the jgirls were fascinated and asking many questions, as were we of them... 'do jgirls like giving head' etc (actually that was cobys question). soooo classy. and p was trying to score with the cute 19 yo waiter....

on another note, i have been having the Strangest Dreams. last week i dreamt about dick van dyke and chim chim cheroo. i only remembered when, the next day, a student told me they loved mary poppins, and it all came flooding back. weird, especially cos that was the first time i had ever heard a japanese person mention mary poppins. and then last night i dreamt that i had my right eye missing. just a big empty socket. and in my dream my depth perception was all screwy too. i kept looking at it in the mirror.

so jeff was a Total Arsehole last night and normally i can forgive him pretty easily but the more i think about it, the more i know hes not getting out of this one. ok, so i can handle him rejecting me romantically, but last night he interrupted me mid-sentence and said he didnt want to talk to me. there was no one else there or anything. it wasnt that he wanted to put the moves on some girl so i should make myself scarce, it was a flat out insult to me personally and i told him that hes really lucky he didnt get a Big Fuckin Slap. i was too shocked to do anything. his excuse was he had just been talking to a really drunk person and he wasnt drunk so he didnt want to listen to any more drunk talk. there are so many things wrong with that, i didnt know where to begin. the number of times i have listened to jeffs Drunk Drivel. i was fuckin irate. anyway, he wont be forgiven for this one. i have never experienced him being so rude before.

urgh, im getting all shitty just thinking about it.

so tonight shouldbe a nice relaxing night at home. coby is coming over to smoke some pot with me and hang out. p is in onomichi for the night. how cosy....

...and a Crazy Night was had by All

well well, where to start. ok, so i guess i can start with the fact that last week we were finally hitting temperatures in the High Teens, and then today it was snowing. just a little crazy....

hmmmm, i did not go on a date with atsushi.. miscommunications will happen with Language Barriers. his night off is wednesday not saturday, which i had originally thought was odd anyway. i discovered this on thursday when, after a busy session of nomihodai at doma doma (at which there were some wonderfully obnoxious renditions of 'america -fuck yeah: the team america theme song', but no one ate 'a cuttlefish dries one night'.. sounds like a haiku doesnt it?), patricia and i somehow found our way back there.. we were in the company of some very conceited chinese girls with their old sugar daddies and didnt stay long as it was quite busy and the girls were rather annoying. i really hope that he was joking when i asked him what we should do on wednesday night and he said have sex (your japanese doesnt need to be that good to understand sexu o shimasu).

got myself in a spot of bother with pattie this week. well, there wasnt really any bother, but i guess i had merely been Let Off The Hook. she kind of finished things with the guy downstairs.... and well, i hope i dont need to go into details.... she has gone to fukuoka for a few days, so maybe will have cooled off when she gets back. wait, its not as bad as it sounds. she said she didnt care (she is the one with a fiancee to Go Back To...), but i think that was said after the fact that it didnt go very far and i said it wouldnt go further, but then it did and i should have been more discreet about it is all -maybe. whatever.

now i wish i hadnt given this site address to my parents. not because theyre prudish (at all), but because they'll be Disappointed in my mistreating a friend. hey, im disappointed in me, i really didnt realise the floors in these apartments were as un-soundproof as the walls....

on another note, i am taking baby steps getting closer to canada. will send my ticket off for a refund, and go straight from japan. have sent off visa bits and pieces and im just waiting to hear back from my friend over there before i book anything for sure.

Yay or Yikes?

ok so im all nervous about a date that probably Wont Even Happen. on sunday night i was trying write emails and post a photo on My Blog, when my housemate patricia came home a little trolleyed. well, Very Trolleyed really. lezgowowt rawksi! she tries so hard to suppress the texan in her, but just add alcohol, and suddenly: there it is! how i let myself be talked into going out on a sunday night in fukuyama, i dont know.
nothing was open naturally. so after escaping some young japanese guys we thought could help us find Somewhere Fun, but instead asked us if we like sex (hmmmm...), we managed to find one kind of nice looking bar with all of 2 patrons, plus a sexy bartender. now, to anyone who has ever known me, if you think i am extroverted, you need to meet pattie. she is No Holds Barred, especially when it comes to gettin a man. thankfully on sunday she was working it for me, as she has a bit of a regular at the moment... so we played a little darts with our new bartending friend, exchanged email addresses and i got a Kiss on the Cheek, though i do remember trying for a little more...
thankfully i didnt screw it up too much and he emailed me that same night, saying thankyou, please come back and hang out, goodnight... i think, i had to have it translated as it was all in kanji. so i wrote back something in my terrible japanese about emailing on saturday and lets meet. so now i have to sit out the week with Itchy Fingers -so hard not to email him again, but then also thinking i am a little crazy cos he really doesnt speak english, my japanese is awful, and he might be a bit old for me... we will just have wait and see.

i might have eggs for breakfast...

NB: 'email' read: 'text message'

Fleece...

apparently fleece is very Versatile

The True Test of Love

well it is a little disappointing when he tells you that he wouldnt steal his mums car for you. apparently this is how you know you love someone.

i thought it was more like someone who feels like your best friend, that you can tell anything, who makes you laugh, and you wanna shag them stupid all the time. but hey, what would i know, i guess i havent been In Love yet... (though i probably would steal my mums car for him -except i cant drive her car, its a manual).

A is A?

great fun introducing the boys to their first karaoke box. i almost lost my voice at one point, that was a new experience, but i kept going and it came back!

afterwards however, i had a rather strange time with coby. i dont even remember how it all happened, and of course we were both very drunk, but he started preaching to me about how we are the only people responsible for our happiness, and we dont need anyone to make us happy, only ourselves. you could live your life in complete solitude and be happy. i thought he sounded very Over The Top and when he said that he got all of this from a book he'd just finished reading, i insisted that he let me read the book so that i can know what on earth he is talking about. me being in previously mentioned emotional state, i ended up getting very upset with him presuming to tell me about my attitudes and what will make me happy... all a little Full On.

so now its 3pm and im still in my pjs, thinking about going to fresta (fu resu taaaaaa), and maybe the 100 yen store (where Everything is 100 yen) to do my first Proper Shop since i got back from my holiday. damn its still so cold here. uninsulated japanese apartments with walls made of cardboard do not tend to keep the heat very well.

i wonder if i can use shabu shabu pork as a substitute for bacon....

Act I

oh dear, i have never read a Very First Blog before, so i dont really know what to write in a Very First Blog...
do i just start to diarise my happenings, or do i give a Brief History of Me?

tonight i am meeting my NOVA colleagues for a spot of karaoke and, im sure, much drinking and merriment. we still remain undecided as to whether we should take the all-you-can-eat-and-drink-and-sing-for-2-hours package, or just go for regular karaoke. my guess is it will be regular karaoke, though with my current hormonal and emotional state i shouldnt really be adding alcohol into the equation.... will probably end up rather messy.
the main reason for a Night Out, is the arrival of our new teachers coby -from canada, and linton -from australia. rather sad to be one of the Old Crew here now -at only 8 months!

trying very hard to settle back into Life In Japan after my 10 day sojourn to mother england. so lovely to see my dad and of course the wonderful Jo. was excellent to see girls of all shapes and sizes -especially working behind the counter at esprit, or h&m! was even more excellent to fit into the clothes!!! yay! so of course bought lots of things, and how exciting that tesco sells clothes now -and Nice clothes too. ate copious amounts of English Food, lots of meat and potatoes.

...gosh, i feel ive only just started and i need to go and glam up for my night out. it does take a bit of work, all this formatting and templates... hope im not too Worn Out.

before i go i need to post a link to my favorite blog ever: PostSecret. unfortunately i cant think of a secret to send in as im not very good at Keeping Secrets and seem to have told all of mine at least once...